"Jayhawk Jake" (jayhawkjake)
11/01/2014 at 15:57 • Filed to: FEELS
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"Jayhawk Jake" (jayhawkjake)
11/01/2014 at 15:57 • Filed to: FEELS | 1
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I listen to this song more than I should. Mostly cause the video is awesome. I post it on here every now and then because I like it (y'all are probably really tired of it by now)
Yeah, that one. The one with the Sonic.
I rarely get truly personal on here, mostly because I know you people probably don't care, and I don't need the internet to know everything about my life. But I'm going to get semi-personal for a second. I finally actually paid attention to the lyrics and damn, this one hit home
I've been hoping for months, hoping for years
Hoping I might forget
Ah, but it don't get much dumber
It don't get much dumber
Than trying to forget a girl when you love her
Fuck . I'm not going to be happy for a little while now...
Dusty Ventures
> Jayhawk Jake
11/01/2014 at 16:42 |
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Mercedes Streeter
> Jayhawk Jake
11/01/2014 at 16:49 |
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Epic video!!!
And I know that feel. Not only did I lose the girl that's better than the ones in my dreams last week, but this week I came out to everyone that I'm a pansexual. A secret I've locked inside me for over 6 years.
Even though everyone has been so accepting and supportive on both accounts, I'm about to break down and cry anyway.
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Jayhawk Jake
> Mercedes Streeter
11/01/2014 at 17:35 |
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It was three years ago. I never even had her, and it ended really, really badly. I've seen her since then and she wouldn't even look at me. I pretend that I'm over it, but I'm not. Every attempt at a relationship since has failed because I look for the same sensation and I can't find it.
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Mercedes Streeter
> Jayhawk Jake
11/01/2014 at 18:22 |
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We've had a similar experience. My first ever experience with a relationship (and worst) was back in the Senior Year of High School (2011).
I too, didn't even have her. We were together for about as long as the average Las Vegas marriage, but this girl made me alive. I thought that if I made myself a better guy (in reality, I was just fine), I'd have her back in my arms. So I lost 50lb and changed my style, all in the course of two months (I was dropping as much as 2lb a day). But nope, at Prom, she ripped my heart out and set me on fire. She left me there, alone, and got with her stalker...
Since then, I've compared almost every girl to her and she's ruined my expectations of a relationship. I'm always pessimistic and always think it'll end with my broken heart getting even more shattered.
I'm working on changing this mindset, I want to feel the exhilaration of being with someone, rather than worrying about how she's going to hurt me.
Oh, I could go on and on, but I do understand.
And for the past six years, I also had the stress of keeping my sexuality a total secret. Such a liberating feeling letting go... :)
Jake - Has Bad Luck So You Don't Have To
> Jayhawk Jake
11/01/2014 at 18:45 |
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I love that part at 3:00 where it shifts gears while in reverse.
BATC42
> Jayhawk Jake
11/01/2014 at 19:56 |
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Have you see, their video for The Writing on the Wall ? It's so weird.